Has your life been shaken up this year? Mine has. We can refer to the positions and aspects of Uranus and Pluto and Mercury in Retrograde and feel very complacent that it isn’t really anything that WE’RE doing. It’s just Universal Energy, and once the planets are back in order, normality….whatever that is….will be reinstated. Or….we can consciously work with these Universal Energies; use them to gain deeper insights into ourselves; our lifestyles; our choices.
Whatever was going on in March, I found myself striving to accomplish. I became impatient with myself; my sluggish overweight body; even with the sheer energy that I had to summon to reach goals I had set for myself. Some of these goals were long-standing, like spearheading a metaphysical center for personal growth of the individual. I knew that nothing would manifest if I did not put some energy towards making things happen, so I started pushing myself.
The inevitable happened. The Universe pushed back. I allowed myself to get out of sync. Instead of breathing, meditating, and patiently relaxing to stay in the flow, I allowed the energy around me to become more of a roller coaster. I fell. One minute I was upright. The next minute I was lying on the floor, chin on a small footstool, arm underneath me, throbbing.
This was the beginning of 8 weeks of attitude shifting. I could not drive my car, so I had to have someone drive me to the doctor’s and to run errands. I was grateful that people came forward to help me. I was also grateful that I could allow myself to make the best of it and not become discouraged. I accepted this as an opportunity to regain my own flow; to accept what I could not change.
A friend came forward with a gift of 2 weeks of frozen meals, so I would have nutritionally and proportionally balanced food on hand. This helped me get on track with my eating habits. I continued to eat better after the meals were consumed. I feel better, and I’ve lost some weight.
I continued classes in my home. Those who attended took my garbage to the dumpster; changed my sheets, helped unpack several bins of items I had brought with me from my latest trip to NC. They hung things, lifted things, cleaned things that I could not manage on my own. I relaxed the little wall of independence that I had built around me. This wall had kept others at a distance.
The love that came through all of these friends shook me; shook loose that wall I had built. I realized that the love had been there all the time, but for me to feel it, I had to be forced into a position to Receive, instead of to Give.
It is more comfortable for many of us to Give than to Receive. The Bible tells us that it is more blessed. We certainly gain a lot when we give from the heart, with no thought of reward, but not enough thought is given to the benefits of opening up to receiving…the flip side of that coin.
We live in a material, physical plane of duality. It is up to us to seek the balance between the high and the low, the pushing forward and the holding back, the giving and the receiving. As we experiment with balance, we learn. As we find the balance, we flow. Opportunities present themselves. All we have to do is generate the thought of what we want, allow ourselves to stay in a rate of vibration where we feel good, and let the Universe bring us choices that are in harmony with that vibration. The fun is in the choosing. The fun is in the act of balancing the results of all our choices, but the Joy comes when we realize that it is up to us; it is really up to us, and we experience the results of the better choices.
